Prayer changes things?

"Prayer changes things." I've always contemplated on this passage and wondered about it compared to the other verses I have heard and things people say about God and His sovereign will. No, I will not be solving this issue anytime soon, I am glad we cannot figure out this amazing God & His ways! But sit and think about it for a minute. . .

Reading in 2 Samuel about Moses, I am in awe of the way he reasons with God about not wiping out all of the people because of their complaining and lack of commitment to Him. He does this several times for them.

It's funny because when I read these passages I think, "Dang! Why don't they get it? They have witnessed numerous, amazing miracles and still they beg to go back to Egypt & slavery!" Then the second thought that enters my mind. . ."Oh, yeah, we are all the same today just different scenery." (hang head in shame). . .

Why can't we be more like Moses? How great to be able to enter the throne room and say, "God, they know we serve You, so if you annihilate us, that won't look very good for Who You are to all of these other people! Can you give us another chance?" Mercy.

My spiritual gift is Mercy. I can identify with mercy. It defines alot of what I do. God's mercy is even greater!

I used to do this for my children when they were in trouble. I would go to my husband, who is very black & white on issues of discipline and beg for them to be given another chance. He couldn't see my heart that it begged for Mercy, he thought I just didn't want to deal with the issue. I couldn't see his heart that he wasn't just being mean, he was trying to lead them in the right way. God could see straight into Moses heart. He knew him, talked with him "as man speaks with his friend".

That is the key part here. Moses spent many hours in the throne room of heaven seeking, begging, confessing, listening, talking, adoring. The God of the Universe wants to be that intimate with us! How humbling and exciting all at the same time!

Prayer. . .an avenue straight to God. He sees our hearts, He hears our thoughts, He desires us to be that close! Good thing is there is no manipulating Him. . .just reality.

Dealing with a tough issue?
Struggling?
Hurting?
Angry?
Grieving?
Happy?
Lonely?
Sick?
Betrayed?

Go to a quiet place, turn off all distractions, fall on your face & seek His face! Don't know what to pray? that's ok He sees your heart, knows your mind. . .let Him in and He will love you through whatever it is! And He knows, it might just change something!

Good Morning Father!

Several of the past mornings I awoke with a prayerful heart. . .thinking of my family and what the future holds for each of them. . . for my friends that have been on my mind and are dealing with issues. . .I am so thankful that I can talk to my Heavenly Father about each of them and know He is listening and He cares and loves them. Below is one of my favorite songs by Phil Wickham. . .

YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

I see Your face in every sunrise

The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes

The world awakens in the light of the day

I look up to the sky and say

You're beautiful



I see Your power in the moonlit night

Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright

We are amazed in the light of the stars

It's all proclaiming who You are

You're beautiful, You're beautiful



I see You there hanging on a tree

You bled and then You died and then You rose again for me

Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne

Soon we will be coming home

You're beautiful, You're beautiful


When we arrive at eternity's shore

Where death is just a memory and tears are no more

We'll enter in as the wedding bells ring

Your bride will come together and we'll sing

You're beautiful
I see Your face,

You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see Your face,

You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

I see Your face,

I see Your face

I see Your face,

You're beautiful, You're beautiful, You're beautiful

Phil Wickham from the Album CANNONS

Thoughts from the day. . .

Been contemplating coversations & thoughts from the day. . .


To me being OPEN to what God wants for me is something I have always been ready for, except for the past year or so. . . .I have fought it tooth and nail. . .He has been so patient with me and loved me through this rebelious time I have been in. Thankfully HE is more gracious than I and much more ready to forgive me and draw me back to Him than I am to others. . .working through that. . .He also knows my weakenesses.

God has placed YOU, my friend, in my life to show me that being HIS is not an option. He chose me, not me HIM. I am His child and I want to be where HE wants me. . .seriously that does not matter where, because where He has planned is so much better than where I fight to be on my own.

Even the thought of loosing this precious man He has made for me has been a very sobering train of thought and one I do not want to have to find out what it is like.

Don't let fear play a part in your life be open and ready for HIS plan. Let God show you what it is that He wants to bless you with.

Let His peace flow over you this weekend and rest in Him.

"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love and of hope and a sound mind!" II Tim 1:7 my fav verse!

Can I Get a "Do-Over"?

Over the past two years I had several major and a few minor things happen in my life. Some to me and some to others that affected me greatly. I sit here now looking at the date of my last post and I am shocked at the amount of time that has passed. 


These past two weeks have been just as bad, but have served as a wake-up call.


Decided to change this to an account of my journey back. . .

Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"
me, "Did I hear something?"
Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"

me, "What?"
Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"

me, "Did You say what I think You said?"
Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"

me, "Yes, I know that." and still proceeded to NOT heed the warnings.

Two weeks and alot of heart/gut wrenching pain later. . .

Still Small Voice, "That is not who you are!"

me, "I feel like it is who I am. HELP ME!! PLEASE!"
Still Small Voice, "Sit with Me child & listen & learn. I Love you!"
me, "I am so sorry. Will you help me out of this pit?"

I have been led to start reading two books,

So Long, Insecurities
&
Get Out of That Pit
both by Beth Moore

This will be my dialogue of how God brings me out of this PIT.

Random Thoughts. . .

Sitting here today with many thoughts running through my mind. . .

I have found that I truly love Jeff.

I enjoy my job

I get to see my grandbabies very soon! I miss them sooo much!

I hate that feeling just before you get sick. . .

My daughter & I talk alot - I like that.

The beach is my Haven of rest.

Why are things so often complicated?

I am happy my son is so happy.

Laughter truly is a wonderful medicine!

Jeff is my favorite Biker!

Ever have to deal with something you knew was going to be a mess?

Trust can be dangerous and good at the same time.

Is there ever a good time for a crisis?

My life turned out differently than I thought it would.

I love my car.

It's interesting when you catch someone in a lie that you don't even know.

I am very thankful for the friends God has given me!

28 years is a long time and then again it is a short time.

I am excited to see Primal Faith's finished product!

Photography is something I really love!

It is hard to see a friend that is greiving.

Death leaves such a hole in your heart.

I love my family sooo much!

Life is a wild and crazy ride. . .I am glad I am on this particular ride!

SIGH. . . . .