Can I Get a "Do-Over"?

Over the past two years I had several major and a few minor things happen in my life. Some to me and some to others that affected me greatly. I sit here now looking at the date of my last post and I am shocked at the amount of time that has passed. 


These past two weeks have been just as bad, but have served as a wake-up call.


Decided to change this to an account of my journey back. . .

Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"
me, "Did I hear something?"
Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"

me, "What?"
Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"

me, "Did You say what I think You said?"
Still Small Voice, "This is not who you are!"

me, "Yes, I know that." and still proceeded to NOT heed the warnings.

Two weeks and alot of heart/gut wrenching pain later. . .

Still Small Voice, "That is not who you are!"

me, "I feel like it is who I am. HELP ME!! PLEASE!"
Still Small Voice, "Sit with Me child & listen & learn. I Love you!"
me, "I am so sorry. Will you help me out of this pit?"

I have been led to start reading two books,

So Long, Insecurities
&
Get Out of That Pit
both by Beth Moore

This will be my dialogue of how God brings me out of this PIT.

Random Thoughts. . .

Sitting here today with many thoughts running through my mind. . .

I have found that I truly love Jeff.

I enjoy my job

I get to see my grandbabies very soon! I miss them sooo much!

I hate that feeling just before you get sick. . .

My daughter & I talk alot - I like that.

The beach is my Haven of rest.

Why are things so often complicated?

I am happy my son is so happy.

Laughter truly is a wonderful medicine!

Jeff is my favorite Biker!

Ever have to deal with something you knew was going to be a mess?

Trust can be dangerous and good at the same time.

Is there ever a good time for a crisis?

My life turned out differently than I thought it would.

I love my car.

It's interesting when you catch someone in a lie that you don't even know.

I am very thankful for the friends God has given me!

28 years is a long time and then again it is a short time.

I am excited to see Primal Faith's finished product!

Photography is something I really love!

It is hard to see a friend that is greiving.

Death leaves such a hole in your heart.

I love my family sooo much!

Life is a wild and crazy ride. . .I am glad I am on this particular ride!

SIGH. . . . .

Blessed Be Your Name!

4 days into 2009 already in the desert place. . .

My precious daughter miscarried this evening. . .our hearts are broken. . .

This song is reverberating in my head!

Blessed Be Your Name
by Matt Redman
- - -
Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

Merry Christmas!!!

Can you believe 2008 is almost gone? Where did the time slip away to? We have had a full year and blessings in our family beyond belief!

We added a grandson to our family in 2008 and will welcome another precious baby in 2009! I am so thankful for my kids, their spouses & my grandchildren. . .Our family continues to enjoy time together when we can. . .watching them work through issues and what life throws at them, makes me even more proud of who they have come to be. I love each of you more than you will ever know!

Cheri, words cannot express how much our friendship means to me! Being able to spend time with you this past year has been so awesome! I love you and your sweet family! Look forward to more time in the coming year!

The friends we have made along the way in our journey continue to enrich our lives! (thank God for Facebook!) We have been able to reconnect with many of you through FB, how wonderful! Never pass up a chance to make friends even if it is for a short time, connecting with people is so important in this day and time.

Know that we love you all and look forward to the coming year and whatever God may bring our way, we will be thankful and give Him all the praise!

Merry Christmas to all of you! And may you not let the business of shopping, wrapping, cooking and running from here to there overwhlem you or keep you from focusing on what really matters! Slow down and enjoy the days and people around you.

Love is pouring from Your heart. . .

Funny how you can be tooling along thinking you are heading your own way or just exisiting, not doing much and then a simple breakfast or need to have a talk with someone can turn into such a God moment. Have had that happen several times in the past couple weeks. I believe God is showing me that He is in control and prooving to me that the saying "You can do nothing to make God love you less OR to make God love you more!" is very evident in my life right now. We can get so caught up in feeling the need to "do" so God will be pleased, that we forget He is the same always. His love never changes.

Love is pouring from Your heart
Hope is in Your hands
Life is in your arms. . .Spirit FALL. . .