The Twilight Zone

Time is one of those things you really never pay attention to until you are older. I never thought of time as a teenager or young adult. Now at 40+ and a grandmother of the greatest grandson EVER! ;o) I feel like we are in fast-forward mode.

My daughter is back in college, my son is in Iraq, my daughter-in-law & grandson move back home next week to await the arrival of TJ home! That will be a wonderful day. How we all have missed him, but none more than Tara. She is a strong and wonderful young woman. I am so glad God gave us such a wonderful addition to our family. I miss them already.

We are empty nesting now, again!

It is true what they say "they always come back home!". . . Our daughter has come back & left 3 times! She is going to become a teacher. She will be a great one. She loves kids and spending time with them. I am so proud of her. I miss her.

I have been in the twilight zone as of late. It's strange how you can be right in the midst of this close, intimate relationship with Christ and then you wake up and find it has been 6 months since your last encounter with Him! I am unsure of what happened. But here I am at the threshold of beginning again. . .turning around and finding Him there patiently waiting. . . crazy thing is I haven't been doing anything bad. . .just haven't been doing anything!

So today starts another trail back to where I should have always been. I would hate to see my journey as a topical map. I think you would get very dizzy tracing all of the rabbit trails I have taken as I jump off the straight and narrow to the woods of complacency. Normally that is where I jump to. Not jumping headlong into sin. . .just not desiring time with the Father or study time. Just Not. . .

We attended Life Groups and Church Services yesterday and it felt so good to talk about serving and ministering to others. It was great to see poeple excited about God and being there together. I miss spending time with the youth girls we used to have in our home for Bible studies and gatherings. That was when I was most fulfilled, being able to share in the lives of others and learn and grow together.

Here we come out of the twilight zone, into a place where people matter. Not just "Christian people" but all people.